Was it really MY fault?


It’s amazing when I realize how much there’s to learn about myself.  I mean the hidden thoughts and feelings that’s been buried deep in my subconscious mind.  And what’s kinda magical is HOW I learn these things.

For example, a couple of weeks ago I was driving down my street on my way to work, and something caught my eye on the left side of the street and didn’t see the police officer standing on the right side of the road with a speed gun.  So, by the time I saw him, it was too late, he was waving me over to pull on the side of the road.  As I pulled over, and reached for my purse to get my ID out, and get this done as fast as possible. I saw an elderly woman walk out, and start to talk to the officer.  Of course, in my head I was like “Oh my gosh lady, please, I got to get to work!”

The officer finally came to my car, and his first words were, “This is your lucky day!”  I was so baffled, I didn’t know if he was being sarcastically mean or what.  He said the lady came out to ask for help because her husband just fell.  I literally gasped out loud, worried for the old guy.  Then the officer sent me on my way.

As I drove away I felt a bit lucky, then got a big surge of GUILT.  Thoughts of blaming myself for what happened to the old guy.  Was some higher power watching out for me and made the old guy fall?  Do I have some kind of protective energy that caused that to happen to save myself?  and on, and on….  THEN I caught myself, how can this be my fault?  I had no power in the elderly mans fall, NONE AT ALL.  I was just feeling guilty that I got something beneficial from someone else’s pain.  Why was I blaming myself?

I finally realized that this was an old pattern in my thinking, creating my own stories making me the OH SO POWERFUL ONE.  These stories were what I told myself to survive my life.  I have to support, help, serve others because I am the strong oneHow will you ripple out?. Bulls**t.

I am strong within my own power and the action that I choose to take. Everything before that is what brought me to this moment, and everything after that, is the effect from that action.

So, the action that we take everyday has a relationship from the past, and leads us into the future. Our present moment is the most important factor, and not just our actions, but our  life condition and vibration that gives birth to our actions.  Whether we act from a place of hurt, anger, exhaustion, abundance, love, or gratitude, THAT energy is what creates the cause to our next action and thus the benefits or consequences we receive.  Our energy, or actions ripple out through vibrations.

Can we stop blaming ourselves and other people?  Can we instead, accept the things that happen is from  the relationship of the past, present, and future?  Let’s be the change we want to create!  We can do this one step at a time.



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